Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Should I really be revealing my age...

Maybe not, but then again, who really cares? It is what it is, and despite the fact that I am constantly questioning my years on this earth (as in, how is it possible that I have been here 40 years) all signs point to the fact that I was indeed born in 1973. So this year was a big year, I turned 40 while pregnant with my second child who is now 3.5 months old. I am a mom that became a mom when she was older which I find is definitely more common but despite what people tell you not the norm. Most girls that I grew up with and who are my age have kids in college, high school, or at least middle school (many have all of the above at once, God Bless) while I have a 2.5 year old and an infant. Now, I'm not complaining as I really didn't plan to have kids before then and didn't in fact ever plan anything, that's pretty much how hubby and I role and while it's not ideal in this case I think it was meant to be what it is. The fact is, I was very busy being a mom to my 6 pugs for so long that I wasn't sure I should or would be good at being a mom to humans. Turns out, you can do it all and I am pretty good at both, although probably a better pug mom (just saying). So a guy at the gym told me not to tell people my age. He was an older guy and flirting as all of the very old guys do with me (only the old ones or those that clearly aren't playing with a full deck hit on me) and I told him I just had a kid, just turned 40, been busy. He was like, hey, you should never tell anyone that because you are only going to get older and if you can get away with people thinking you are 30 (which he claims I could), then why say a word? I guess it was complimentary but certainly he seemed disappointed that I was 40 and had 2 kids. He must have thought I was a younger single babe and I ruined his fantasy. So anyway, I've decided I won't tell people anymore (outside of this here blog, lol) and I will allow people to guess at my age on their own. I may look 32 some days and a little older others. Here's what's on my mind lately. Should I get some botox? I think I should because I have a lot of lines, most of them have quite honestly been there a long time, they are happy laugh lines as I smile and laugh with a huge grin and I think it's genetic to get the lines. That being said, as I am getting older and have less sleep in my 40's it could get bad, so I think now may be a good time. I will do some research and see what I think but any advice would be helpful. I don't want to become a nut with a frozen face but I'm thinking a little dab may help. So the title of my blog is figuring it out and what I can learn from my kids. Not a great title but I guess it suits where I am. I am trying to figure out how to balance my work life and my career ambitions with being a good mom to kids and pugs, happily married, and also learning from my younger self (my babies) to just let go, stress less, laugh as much as I used to, and stop and smell the flowers, like my baby Alexis does. I am going to use this blog to update on things I learn, things I want to learn, and maybe to help with my balance and my figuring it all out.